Thursday, August 24, 2023

The Day My World Ended

At sunrise of 3rd August, my wife came to fetch me in her brand new car. She sped all the way through the morning traffic to Shah Alam.



It was less than 2 minutes court proceeding and it was over. My ex wife drove me home.

The world ended for me when you said Good Bye. 

It's surreal. 


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Monday, July 24, 2023

My Blog's 15 Years Anniversary

This month marks the 15th year since I started writing this personal blog. I have been a transparent person who shared my real photos and honest opinions in some ways. Being a spiritual person, my objective was to create awareness that the spiritual dimensions are all real. There is life after death and our time on earth is just a journey. We could sometimes shape and plan our journey, but sometimes it doesn't happen. We only have ourselves to be blamed for reasons unknown to our human's understanding. Be patient and surrender ourselves to the destiny, is my belief. I have been there at the brink of deaths few times.



The above photo was taken in January 2022 during my birthday celebrations. I thought it's appropriate to use it to post for my blog anniversary. Today I look much thinner and frail compared to this shot. One reader Noor Rani pointed out that my hair looks like a wig!! ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿ˜‚

When I have passed this stormy health issues, I should be back to gym and exercise to stay fit. Please include simple yoga exercises in your daily routine at the comfort of your home. It would bring miracles to heal and prevent various types of sickness especially the well being of our gut health. Before this cancer, I never paid attention to the importance of my gut health. This is the terrible price I am paying now.

Thank you very much for reading and following my blog for 15 years. I have decided to tidy up my blog instead of closing it permanently when I was lying on my hospital bed in early 2022. That's when my leg's blood clot was swelling to maximum until the cardiologist cautioned me that I could die any minute. That moment, my brain and thoughts were reeling back and forth about my whole life. That is when I thought I would close my blog permanently. Somehow I have changed my mind when my cancer had relapse 3 times and decided to tidy up my blog by replacing many old posts with very useful health tips through "cut & paste" articles of many good authors. 

I wish to elaborate further about how blogging had taught me about the true colours of many other bloggers. No 2 persons in this world is alike......

(To be continued here......)

Okay, bye



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Wednesday, June 21, 2023

Released & Discharged


Hooray!! I have been discharged from hospital this evening after 5 nights and 6 days stay. It was really no fun as my list of complaints are very long.

1. The air cond was freezing with no temperature control. So it was like sleeping in a mortuary! It's either on/off switch only.

2. The food was horrible as they fed me plain white porridge 3 times daily plus some juices, yoghurt or cheap ice cream. That's because I had to be on strict soft food diet to monitor what has caused my frequent bleeding over the months.

3. I sat on the bed for 6 days without leaving my cold room. I had terrible bed sores on my buttock. I asked for it as the nurses warned me not to even walk to toilet as I might faint again. First 2 days they had to wait for me at the toilet door while I sat on the throne like a King! I enjoyed browsing my phone while the nurses hurried me to finish my royal business fast. Well, it was my coronation day!

4. Everyday they had to poke painful needles into both arms. Most of the time, they had to pull out and reinsert the needles as it could not reach the right veins. My arms were pale, weak and swollen. Of course I screamed like a sissy cos it was painful. 

5. The needles injected, were to connect the drips or fresh blood supplies or daily dosage of 4-5 different medications. In total I was given 4 packets of blood during my stay. That made the total to 10 packets of blood in 3 weeks! Do I sound like a thirsty vampire??


The horrible plain white porridge with boiled vegetables for 3 meals daily. 



The last meal was fish and chips for lunch. It was a big bonus though not delicious at all. My tears were crying with joy singing like Evita Peron. "Don't cry for my hospital meals!!" ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚


The hospital stay was to address and stop the bleedings. Next Tuesday I will be back to hospital for the usual monthly follow up with antibody infusion and hopefully just another round of oral chemotherapy. I had suffered enough of the unforgettable painful chemotherapy needles which burned my veins for 5 hours. I realized that I forgot to post and elaborate the side effects of the chemotherapy. Would you like to see and hear about them? 

Okay, bye.


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Sunday, June 18, 2023

My Rollercoaster Ride To Recovery

I have been going through so much since my last blog post. So many things happened to my health with no full recovery in sight but it comes & goes like the waves in the ocean.

Fast forward, I just had my 3rd pet scan on Monday and results looked much better. Meaning, no new cancer cells sprouted out since the 3rd relapse. The scan showed some disease still progressing which is not alarming to my oncologist.

Just when I thought I could relax a bit, shit really hits the fan. It was the most terrifying trauma ever happened to me in my whole life. News spreaded like wildfire from KL to Bangkok, Singapore, Hong Kong and other planets. I was busy texting one by one until it gave me an idea to copy paste them here for my updates.

"On Thursday, I went to Geezzaa Mall with a friend. I went to toilet and was bleeding at the toilet. I went to toilet 2nd time and fainted in the male cubicle. I was lying on the floor and others saw my bag sticking out under the door. The security guards opened the door and woke me up. Luckily my friend was outside and called my wife who arranged an ambulance to send me to hospital !!! ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿป‍♂️"....


Oh boy, it was my first time riding a heated and comfortable ambulance that raced across the busy after office hours!! I forgot about shame or malu while being wheeled out of the busy shopping mall. My head was spinning like stars.



Today will be my 4th night in the hospital alone. Hopefully I can be discharged tomorrow.

Okay, bye!

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Saturday, December 10, 2022

Good Morning Taipei


Greetings to everyone. I arrived Taipei last night. It will be just 3 nights to attend our Tibetan Buddhist Prayers. I am still recovering from surgery and treatment with much struggles to endure the fatigue, prodding pain and stiffness on all my toes & fingers. I still have follow up at hospital for the antibody infusion as my platelets are too low. 

Thank you very much for all your prayers and kind thoughts. Hopefully I will post my unfinished blog writings and visit all your blogs too.



Happy Weekend!




Friday, January 28, 2022

Life After Surgery

I must admit that many things ran across my thoughts while I was lying on the 3 different hospital beds for a total of 12 nights. It wasn't a near death ordeal but it was bad enough to make me think nonsense. I asked myself whether I would have any regrets if I had to die the next day or during the major surgery. I asked myself where was the happiest places and moments I spent. The list was very long but I can briefly say that it was standing infront of the whole Grand Canyon in Arizona when I was a student. I was so speechless and the sight was worth dying for. The other happiest days were spent with my wife when I rode on the rented motorbikes around Phuket Island and Pulau Belitong. Both occasions, it rained heavily and we both were soaked wet but my wife was singing very loudly and happily all her Cantonese songs. Those were funny and happiest memories.





I have mentioned that I was badly traumatized during my stay at the 3 hospitals. I didn't elaborate here in the social media as it is too embarrassing indeed. I shared partially in my Facebook and that was shocking enough for my friends and contacts to read. They could not imagine the ordeal and I only have myself to be blamed. The 3 hospitals were strict and did not allow any visitors which made it difficult for helpless patients like me. When I was discharged, my wife checked me into the big hotel at Sunway to relax and pamper myself with the morning's sumptuous buffet breakfasts. Look at the giant elephants that stood prominently outside the hotel. Their trunks pointed upwards which Feng Shui terms meant aiming and sucking all the wealth from above. This hotel and their shopping mall have been doing well with expansions, one after another.




The view from my hotel's room overlooked the lagoon below with many water features, It was not crowded as it was a weekday. I had fun relaxing in the room watching TV and went window shopping several times. 



This photo was taken just before Christmas at the hotel's lobby. Can you guess what little gift I was holding???




It was the chemotherapy tablets given by the doctor after being discharged from hospital. I went back for follow up visits and had so far done 3 separate blood tests on different days. My blood is back to normal and healthy level with no more tumour markers. So I declined to take chemo tablets as they are too strong as the doctor wants me to take it for 112 days! My hair would be gone and all my healthy cells would be destroyed.




Meanwhile, my best friend from childhood days have been encouraging me to visit the Nano Heat Therapy Centre in Puchong again. He believes the heat therapy that penetrates our whole body at the right temperature would eliminate all the unhealthy bacteria and cancerous cells at early stage. I used to frequent this place which I had blogged HERE and it is nice that I have a friend to accompany me. We could talk for hours and laughed silly at our growing up years at school. Laughter is the best medicine too.

Thursday, November 4, 2021

I am back home!

I have been discharged from hospital 2 days ago. I underwent a successful 7 hour surgery after staying in different hospitals for a total of 12 nights where I received over 50 painful needles. I was very traumatized by the whole episode with the insurance company which made me feel so helpless and hopeless. 





The doctors performed a 4 keyhole surgery which made the pain most minimal. In actual total you could see 6 cuts. I will see my surgeon again in 3 weeks to hear the biopsy results of the tumours. 

I am so glad to be home to sleep on my own bed. The wounds have healed fast but I am getting painful cramps all over my shoulder, ribs and stomach instead. I am taking painkillers now which helps. 

Meanwhile, I wish all readers a Happy Deepavali and Happy Holidays. I will update my blog again tomorrow! Yes!!









The Day My World Ended

At sunrise of 3rd August, my wife came to fetch me in her brand new car. She sped all the way through the morning traffic to Shah Alam. It w...